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| Wednesday, August 1st, 2007 | | 8:24 pm |
| | Tuesday, May 29th, 2007 | | 10:45 am |
different blog
So I'm traveling to many places and created a different blog to talk about all of my adventures. Read and comment on my blog!Sorry for the lack of LJ updates, um, ever. Maybe after this trip I'll get back in the habit of blogging. | | Saturday, January 27th, 2007 | | 8:58 am |
Angry
What kind of person completely shuns their friend of three years and then goes on like nothing ever happened? Like, really, how can you do something like that and not have it bother you at all?? I didn't deserve to be thrown out like last week's garbage, but that's what he did. He could at least just be the tiniest bit upset about it. But no, he's going to go on like nothing happened, and it just rubs the salt in the wound. No one deserves to open the door and see every gift you had given someone sitting on the doormat, with a note that says 'have a nice life'. There's nothing healthy or rational about that, that's something someone does out of spite. I was his friend, I was there for him when no one else was, and this is my thanks. This is what I have to show for it. Returned gifts, permanent invisibility, and an aching heart that doesn't have the coldness required to return the favor and shun him back. Current Mood:  distressed | | Monday, January 22nd, 2007 | | 11:15 am |
Back to the drawing board
So apparently my friend who was letting me host a blog on his site is no longer my friend anymore. As a result, he's gotten rid of everything I had on that blog, so I guess it's back to here for now. I'd post more about that but I'm at work and I'll probably start crying at my desk if I do post about it, so I'll just leave it at that. And to end this post on a moderately amusing note, behold the best real question I've ever been asked by a stranger on an icy day: "Excuse me ma'am, would you like to borrow my spatula?" Current Mood:  crushed | | Tuesday, January 9th, 2007 | | 10:54 pm |
Chicago update!
Ok, so I know I'm long overdue for a Chicago summary. All in all, it was a fantastic weekend of fun, adventure, and reminiscing. Kija, Jennifer and I all arrived on Thursday just as it was beginning to snow. We learned some key facts about Chicago very quickly:
1. If you're going to be in town for more than a day and you plan on sightseeing, buy the unlimited subway pass at the airport. It's a pain in the arse to find them when you're already in the city and have run out of free rides. 2. When exiting the subway, collect your belongings and stand BEFORE the train comes to a stop. Jennifer and I ended up walking one stop backwards to meet Kija after the doors slammed in our faces. 3. When traveling without direct transportation (e.g. if you have to walk any distance to your hotel), be sure to bring rolling luggage. It is not a good idea to bring all of your textbooks with you in a shoulder bag (ahem, Kija). 4. When asking for directions in Chicago, ask more than one person. There are good odds that the first person you asked is either a tourist or clueless. It is in your best interest to always know which direction is north. When it is snowing, find someone who looks like they aren't phased by the freezing weather and have them point you in the right direction. Jessica was supposed to meet us Thursday night, but all flights out of St. Louis were cancelled Thursday night due to snow. Unfortunately all flights flying into Chicago were cancelled Friday morning, so she didn't get in until mid afternoon on Friday. Kija, Jenn and I spent the afternoon sightseeing and frolicking in the snow. Jess finally arrived and we all went out to dinner at The Grand Lux. Pricey, but a good time, especially after several drinks ;-) That evening I experienced a classic milestone that every 20-something must try at least once. The drunken "make out with a stranger at a bar" experience. Jess, Jennifer and I met up with three of Jessica's guy friends at a bar downtown. They had all paid a cover for unlimited drinks and hooked us up the rest of the evening. I'm not even sure how much I had to drink, as the glasses of wine kept reappearing as soon as I finished one off. After getting thoroughly plastered, we made our way to another bar (another key fact: bars close at 4am in Chicago), and that was where the alcohol fully kicked in. I spent the rest of the evening making out with a stranger whose name managed to escape my memory. John something? At any rate, we were all totally smashed by the time we finally left. I honestly don't even know how we managed to get home, other than the fact that I was conscious enough to tell the cab driver the name of our hotel. The other two girls were very confused as to how they ended up in the cab in the first place. Upon reaching the hotel, Jess realized that she had accidentally taken someone else's coat home. Unfortunately, the guys had already left the bar and hadn't seen her coat (which also had her cell phone in the pocket). Long story short, the bar didn't reopen until 9PM the next day, which left Jess without any way of keeping warm or contacting anyone to inquire about the coat. She ended up buying a new coat and pink Razr the next morning, keeping the tags and receipts of course, and spent the rest of the day trying out her new gear. Luckily at 9:00 the bar was able to find her jacket and cell phone in the lost and found, and she was able to find out that her new pink Razr wasn't all that she was hoping for. Hooray for receipts! Saturday night was dinner with Amata and Aryne. This may have been my favorite part of the trip. The food was great, the conversation was lively, and it was fun to disorient Aryne by reminding her that even though she's known Amata for 10 years, we've all known her for longer than that ;-) We did manage to get a reunion snapshot before the evening was over. Can you tell that Kija and I are still learning how to properly wear scarves? So that was the trip in a nutshell. Here are all the rest of the Chicago pictures. I fancied myself an amateur photographer while I was there, but now that I look at the pictures most of them are blurry or crooked. Ah well. As a final announcement, I have been updating another blog that I have been trying to develop over the last year or so. I've got the basic barebones functionality in place to view the posts and make comments, so feel free to do so. I still haven't tweaked the stylesheets to make it look pretty, but hey, it's better than nothing. For now, you can see the blog here. This blog will eventually be transferred to my elli143.com domain, but since it's still in development I'm going to continue borrowing my friend's server and tweak it there :) Until next time! Current Mood: indescribable | | Friday, December 22nd, 2006 | | 3:42 pm |
| | Saturday, November 11th, 2006 | | 9:55 pm |
Just tell me when it's over
So UT is playing Kansas State game tonight. After both Colt McCoy and Justin Blalock have been taken out of the game due to injuries, I have turned off the television in the middle of the third quarter. I *never* turn off a UT football game. However, I figure it's a form of self-defense, both for my mental sanity and also for my liver, as I am likely to drink myself into a semi-conscious stupor if we do in fact lose tonight. So maybe I'm a little too passionate about Texas football. So what if I was meticulously counting out the number of votes and computer rank increases we would get in the BCS ranking based on Louisville, Auburn, and California's losses today. So what if the national title game is being played in Arizona, where I would have a free place to stay if Texas would be there. Fucking Kansas State. So I'm employing a brand new tactic of fan superstition. I am turning off the TV, convinced that my eyeballs on the TV are making it worse, and I am going to go to bed tonight without looking up the score. Tomorrow morning there will either be much rejoicing... or I'm going to the store for some orange juice to make a very strong tequila sunrise. Current Mood:  nauseated | | Sunday, October 29th, 2006 | | 8:29 pm |
New apartment
I'm now in my new apartment! Well, sort of. I spent about three hours cleaning the old apartment today, and the rest of the day unpacking the new one. I still have a bunch of stuff to clean out of the old apartment before noon tomorrow. Joy! My back is killing me. I think I'm going to set up an appointment with a chiropractor. So these last few days have been crazy busy/stressful/depressing. My sister came into town on Thursday to help me pack. Thank goodness she did, because we just barely finished packing in time, even with the movers being THREE HOURS late. Oy. The movers finished at 6pm, and I had an event to go to at 6:30. I hadn't showered in over two days and was wearing the same clothes for the second day in a row. Needless to say that evening wasn't very much fun. My sister left early the next morning to volunteer for some sweet music gig in New Orleans. After that, I've basically been sitting by myself in an empty apartment or an apartment that looks like a tornado hit it. I've been getting progressively lonelier as the hours go by. I told Michael that I really wanted him to come over tonight because I needed company, but he wouldn't come. Said I was too stressful for him to be around with all of his other issues. Some friend. When he's lonely, I drop what I'm doing and head over. But when I'm lonely? Fuck off bitch! So now I'm on my couch, still alone and feeling rejected to boot. Anyway, the week hasn't been completely terrible. I got my internet hooked up on Saturday and it turns out I get free cable TV as an added bonus! w00t! I forgot how much I have missed the food network and all its wonderful glory. Emeril, Rachel, Bobby, Paula Deen, I promise never to leave you again. I'm thinking about buying a new TV. Something flat that can go on a wall. Any suggestions for what I should buy and where I can get it cheap? :) Current Mood: lonely | | Thursday, October 26th, 2006 | | 8:03 am |
OMG! A real post!
So I've been deluding myself with the idea that I'm going to write my own blog and just use my LJ for making comments on other people's pages. However, that's really nowhere in sight at the moment. So for now, I might actually start posting on this thing! I move to a new apartment tomorrow. Am I packed? Hell no. And yet instead of packing right now I'm in my bed with my laptop. But I am comfy and snuggly under my covers so what's the motivation in getting up to do unpleasant heavy lifting? Life is kinda fucked up right now. Michael is my only close friend in Austin and he's kinda crazy right now - depression, OCD, a pronounced eating disorder, and general Dr. Jekyll/Mr. Hyde behavior with me. Add that to my own internal conflicts and things are a little overwhelming lately. I have my second therapy session today. I'm not sure if I really like the lady or not; she kinda reminds me of Professor Trelawney. She's very empathic and dramatically nods her head and says "yeah" every time I say something that sounds significant. And she's very big on "how do you *feel* when you talk about that?" I really don't like that, but part of the reason I'm getting therapy is because I guard all of my emotions so carefully that it's hard for me to feel anything at all. So maybe it's just more a discomfort with the therapy than the therapist. I'm gonna email some other people on my insurance plan and see if I can talk to some other people who might be a better fit. I have a week off from work!!! This is unbelievably exciting, with the exception of the fact that part of the reason I took off was to move. Details. I've been at the same job for two and a half years now, and most of the people who made my job great have all quit and gone somewhere that they say is a thousand times better. I'm not sure how much longer I really want to work at this place. Honestly, I don't know if I want to do techie jobs the rest of my life. Something more flexible, like real estate or massage therapy, seems to be appealing to me right now. But who knows, maybe that's just a passing phase. I'm hoping that a full week off will give me some time to think about what I really want in life. Work has seemed like a constant distraction more than anything else lately. In other exciting news, I will be in Chicago the first weekend of December! Jessica, Kija, Jennifer Patten, and I will all be heading to Chicago for a weekend of shopping and general fun. Amata, I would LOVE to grab coffee/lunch/dinner with you while I'm in town! I'll give you a call when I get there. Do you have the same number or did that change when you moved? This is probably enough for now. Hopefully there will be more posts to come once I settle in my new pretty apartment :) | | Sunday, August 13th, 2006 | | 9:03 pm |
"Secret" messages
Ok, so it's kind of funny that I really only use this LJ to tell Amata about things that she probably doesn't want me to post as comments on her own LJ. So here's another one! I've been scanning pictures from way back in the day and just completed the 'middle school' section. Yes, it contains at least one hideous blackmail picture of all of us (you, me, Jessica, and Kija), so I figured you'd get a kick out of it. It's at http://www.elli143.com/pics/middle_school. I also have some pictures from Jessica's wedding last year, if you're interested - http://www.elli143.com/pics/jess_weddingEnjoy! | | Sunday, May 28th, 2006 | | 10:23 am |
Immortal Reminiscence Part II
Immortal Gossip A reprieve for the kind and considerate Amy Dominguez, who no longer has to create the newsletter on her own By: Elli Swift Welcome! As you should all know, I am Elli Swift, one of your fellow goddesses! I would like to dedicate this edition of Immortal Gossip to Amy Dominguez. As mentioned above, she was the original creator of Immortal Gossip, and it's only fair that she get credit for this. The topics discussed in this issue will be based upon my response towards some of the topics Amy mentioned in earlier issues. Therefore, if there are some things that I write that you, fellow immortals, do not agree with, reply back in the form of an article to either Amy or me. Either one of us will be glad to publish your feelings in the next newsletter. Gods? Amy had mentioned earlier about the induction of gods into our immortal society. I believe that this would be a splendid idea, if only we could find the right guys. Perhaps if we only made them demi-gods, then it would be easier to find more worthy males. I think two candidates could possibly be Matt and/or Mike Z. They're the only two I can think of at the moment. Feel free to express your opinions on the subject. Serious? Personally, I believe that our immortal society should live on as long as we know each other, which could quite possibly be through college. I mean, we've taken all this time and consideration into the ranking and promotion of goddesses, and I don't think we should let it go to waste. This society is not only a circle of immortality, but a circle of friendship. The longer we remain united, the stronger our friendships will be. Keeping this society together is well worth the effort, and it should exist until we are physically unable to keep it together. Oops!! You know, Mrs Van Doren is one of us, too! Has she been given the opportunity to read our weekly newsletters? I think not. Mrs. Van Doren, we apologize for not including you in this small but important privilege of being a member of the immortal society. We humbly beg your forgiveness!!! Don't ever let us forget again! Death by Boredom Though some aspects of Algebra can be fun and, occasionally, even entertaining, most of this so-called "challenging" course is a huge bore. Ms. Lancaster needs to crank up her volume and speed so that our attention span will linger just a little bit longer than five minutes out of a 55 minute class. And, on Kija's behalf, Ms. Johnson isn't exactly a crowd pleaser, either. Something needs to be done. Perhaps Amy's English how-to paper needs to be put into effect. (Anyone who has not read Amy's paper simply needs to speak to one of the immortals on her team. We can explain in detail.) On a Personal Note Have you noticed that every single immortal goddess is musically inclined? Even the guys that could be considered to be gods are in band. And why is that? Not because of our sixth grade teachers, (unless, of course, you lucky clarinet players had Mrs. Van Doren), and not because of past musical experience. I personally give credit to Mrs. Shelly Van Doren for every ounce of my musical ability. She has taught every single one of us with enthusiasm and positive reinforcement. Heck, she even got the goddesses in Symphonic band last year to play Chorale and Shaker well! (Hang in there, Amy, you'll get your chance!) So three cheers for Mrs. Van Doren, the musical goddess that no one can beat!!! Summer Plans Have any of you considered what you are going to do over the summer? I think it best that we should all plan ahead. I, personally, have my heart set on going to West Texas Band Camp, since Mrs. Van Doren is going to teach there and she insists that it is a great program. Which reminds me, (this is kind of off the subject) I STILL haven't received my band camp tape from SFA. Yet they still had the gall to send me an application form to return the their camp this summer! YEAH, RIGHT!!! Mrs. Van Doren, if there is any way that you could contact SFA and ask them where the h--- my tape is, I would gladly appreciate it, since they have decided not to respond to our insistent calls for the past three months. Anyway, I would appreciate any of the other goddesses deciding to come to band camp with me, since I don't want to have to be stuck rooming with Susan Hamm. (None of this information will ever leave the circle of goddesses) Kija's Catastrophe Kija Kari has recently been given the title "the biggest idiot." (The quoter of that title wishes to remain anonymous) Why was she given this name? An incident on February 24, 1996 was the reason, the day of the Shepton Spaghetti Dinner. A fellow goddess received a phone call from Kija around 1:00 PM. Kija was extraordinarily mad at herself and completely hysterical. The goddess asked what was wrong, and then mourned with Kija, because she had done the stupidest thing possible. She left her euphonium at school. Now, most people would calmly say, "Call Mrs. Van Doren or Mr. Bell and ask them to get it for you." Unfortunately, neither Mrs. Van Doren or Mr. Bell were accessable at the time, putting Kija in a giant pickle. Luckily, she had an instrument at home, but it really sucked, and she only wanted to use it as a last resort. At the concert, Kija walked into Room 1159 with her crappy euphonium, seeing that this was definately her only option. Mrs. Van Doren was not told of this crisis until AFTER the Spaghetti Dinner, a smooth move on Kija's part. But now, Kija has yet another title. The only person in the entire Symphonic band who fears Mrs. Van Doren. Ode to Peaches Movin' to the country, gonna eat me a lot of peaches; Movin' to the country, gonna eat me a lot of peaches; Movin' to the country, gonna eat me a lot of peaches; Movin' to the country, gonna eat me a lot of peaches; PEACHES COME FROM A CAN! THEY WERE PUT THERE BY A MAN! IN A FACTORY DOWNTOWN! AND IF I HAD MY LITTLE WAY, I'D EAT PEACHES EVERY DAY I DON'T KNOW THE REST OF THIS SONG!! Millions of peaches, peaches for me... Millions of peaches, peaches for me... Millions of peaches, peaches for me... Millions of peaches, peaches for me... | | 9:38 am |
Because only Amata reads this...
I found this on a dusty floppy drive and it made me smile. I'd like to think that the Im's were a precursor to the Black Alley Cats to some degree, so maybe I'm vicariously part of that clan. Anyway, enjoy! Oath of the Immortal[Repeat with all immortals present] I, one of the newly inducted members of the immortal society, do hereby swear to uphold the oath of the immortal. I shall not boast about my status in the presence of mortals. I shall not provoke or tease any half-goddesses or quarter goddesses. And most important of all, I shall not abuse my powers as a supreme goddess. I acknowledge the fact that if I disobey any of these regulations I am liable to suffer demotion to the extremes of just above Jason. Promotions and Demotions In order for one to be promoted or demoted, at least two immortals must agree on the situation. However, if a greater number of immortals do not agree with the promotion/demotion, the decision must be put to a vote. Promotion/demotion cannot be done without a viable reason. Any promotion/demotion performed either without the presence of other immortals or without viable reason is a violation of the Oath of the Immortal. The perpetrator is therefore subject to punishment of the highest degree. Once promoted/demoted, the status of the person must remain for at least a day. After one full day, the person may be promoted/demoted once again. A person may only change status three times in one week. Privileges of the Immortal The immortal may choose the relm she wishes to own. For instance, the goddess of clarinets and smiley faces (Jessica's relms). Each immortal must have her own relm, though two may share one if they please. An immortal may have no more than seven relms. If an immortal has seven relms and another goddess wishes to own one of them, the goddess with seven relms must subject to this wish by either giving it up completely or sharing it. This rule is void if the goddess requesting to share the relm already has five or more relms. The immortal always has supreme power over other beings and she may acknowledge that only among other immortals. Acknowledgement around any others may subject to either a warning or immediate demotion, depending upon the extent of the offense. Powers may only be used for good and good only. Exceptions will be made in the cases of Fluffy, Return, and any other annoying, obnoxious, conceited people, as long as all immortals agree. Signatures of Acknowledgement ________________________________ ________________________________ ________________________________ ________________________________ ________________________________ ________________________________ ________________________________ ________________________________ | | Tuesday, March 28th, 2006 | | 6:04 pm |
| | Tuesday, January 31st, 2006 | | 10:38 pm |
Unsatisfied
So I've been thinking a lot about the things in my life that are going right, and the things that are going wrong. For starters, there are a lot of things going right. I still love my job, despite the overload of work lately. I feel challenged and I feel like for the most part I rise up to meet those challenges. I also feel more confident overall, probably in part to my success at work. The other part is being in better shape and better overall health. My cholesterol levels are all completely in the 'healthy' zone, so I have overcome my hereditary cholesterol problems from my childhood. For the things that aren't going right... well, to be honest, I don't feel like I'm in a loving relationship. Most of the time I don't even feel like I'm in any kind of relationship at all. Can I continue to be with a person who seems to be so unwilling to invest in my emotional well-being? Is it so fucking hard to give me a compliment once in a while? If you go seven months in a relationship without ever hearing words like "you look nice today" or "you're beautiful" or "I care about you just the way you are", is it safe to assume that none of the above are true statements? Maybe the reason I don't hear them is because Michael doesn't believe they're true. If that's the case then why am I wasting my time in a relationship that is only serving to make myself feel less confident and more insecure? I'm okay with who I am, what I look like, what my intrinsic qualities and characteristics are. But when the person who claims to care about me can't even muster the courage to say that I look nice just once in seven fucking months, something's wrong. |
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